Episodes

When Jay Perry's father was diagnosed with cancer, Jay's natural rhythm was thrown into chaos. Wasn't he too young to be faced with whether to continue on his life path or interrupt everything to be with his dad? Making the choice to have that time with his father and help him navigate his final days was radical, difficult, and not to be missed. From diagnosis to death, Jay shares the story of these final times with his dad in his book, My Dad Got Sick. Now he shares what he learned with us.

Pain is a signal that something is wrong. But what if the cause of that pain cannot be relieved? What if we must learn to live with it? Sarah Shockley found herself in just this situation. The condition which was causing constant, debilitating nerve pain could not be completely corrected. So Sarah set out to learn all she could about ending the battle she was in with her pain, and finding a way to live fully with the pain. The result was the book she couldn't find when she was first diagnosed; T...

Danna Schaeffer's life was good. She and her husband were happy with their work, and especially happy about the rising stardom of their daughter, Rebecca. But their world fell apart when their daughter was murdered by a stalker. It would be many years before Danna, a playwright, would create You in Mid Air, and play about loving, and losing Rebecca. Described as both honest, poignant and funny, Danna's play captures both the grief and continued life of her relationship with the daughter she lost...

When Brittany Maynard was diagnosed with a virulent brain tumor, she investigated what might help her and how the end would look if nothing helped. What she learned about how that end would likely unfold scared her more than anything. She searched for a way to stay in her home state of California and still experience a gentle, pain free death when the time came. But there was none. With the support of her husband, Dan Diaz, and the rest of her family, she made the wrenching decision to move to O...

The prison population is aging and with the longer sentences of recent years, more and more prisoners are dying without ever being released. How are they cared for? Is there anyone there to comfort or witness them in the final hours of their lives? There is a movement afoot to train other prisoners to offer care and compassion at the end of life. The impact on the ones who are doing this work, both prisoners and trainers, is profound. With the potential for loving end of life care, no matter wha...

What does it take to forgive and then form a relationship with the man who murdered your father? Margot Van Sluytman lost her dad in an armed robbery when she was 16. She immediately wanted to know the man who had taken him from her. But she had many miles of grief to travel before that day would come. She needed to walk her grief and she used her writing to do that. It was 30 years later when they finally met. Surprisingly, they felt a connection. The worst moment in each of their lives was som...

Laura Davis has written about pain and healing her whole life. From her book The Courage to Heal to I Thought We'd Never Speak Again, she has offered help and hope to a wide community of people determined to find their way through their challenges. But what did she experience when her own loss, the decline and death of her mother, demanded more of her than she could have imagined? As she supported her mother, writing offered solace and helped her to move forward. And after her mother's death, sh...

What finally causes us to begin to explore the impact of death in our lives? For Cathy Zheutlin it was the deaths around her. As her mother's partner and several friends moved towards the end of their lives, she watched how they found their way to full living regardless of their failing health. As a person who seeks answers she became curious about how this was possible, how they could become comfortable with death. She was aware of her own fear. And knowing that her beloved mother would soon pa...

In the western world in the past 30 years, conversation has opened up about grief, illness and death. On the front lines, Susan Barber has witnessed it all and been behind the scenes for its major milestones, including many years producing events for Stephen and Ondrea Levine (Who Dies, Healing into Life and Death). What does she have to tell us about the evolution of hospice care and death conversation? Where is she going? And what first inspired her to make the end of life her life's work? Now...

Losing a loved parent leaves us feeling displaced and unmoored, unsure where home is. But what if that parent has died a world away, soon after you have left her? Not long after Uma Girish moved to the U.S. her mother was diagnosed with breast cancer in India. Navigating her illness and death, and then grief was especially challenged at such a distance. What does support look like when you are new to a country and when all you have known well is inaccessible to you? How do you find your way in s...

What is it about deep loss and devastating life circumstance that sometimes hones our compassion? Perhaps we become aware of others who suffer as we do. Perhaps we come to feel there is nothing left but opening to compassion's mysteries. And perhaps compassion finds us at a desperate moment where nothing else works. For Virginia Sampson, it was all of the above. In compassion she found a balm she had never experienced before. As she developed her own capacity to meet others with compassion, her ...

With life experience, particularly loss experience, do we sometimes become more interested in connection, communication and compassion? For Barbara Gaughen-Muller, this is true. Her life work in facilitating meaningful conversation has sustained her through many of life's most difficult trials, including the death of her beloved husband. Join us to talk about how revolutionary conversations have informed her life and profoundly influenced her work and relationships. What are the tools she has di...

When John Brooks daughter jumped to her death from the Golden Gate bridge, his grieving mind searched for answers. He had thought she was a well-adjusted, normal teen, successful and getting ready to go to college. But how could she have done this if that was true? He set out to try his best to understand what had driven her and, in the process, learned about the potential impact on development of adoption. Could attachment issues have been part of what pushed her so far? His loss led him to dev...

After many other losses, Brent Green prepared to lose the last member of his family of origin, his sister. As the family sat with her, a wise chaplain introduced questions that opened up a new way for Brent to think about loss, death and its impact on living. During his grief, these questions continued to occupy him and led to his latest book, Questions of the Spirit: The Quest for Understanding at a Time of Loss. What are the questions that captured his attention and how did he answer them for ...

At the heart of the Lavender Pen tour of October, 2017 was a recognition that none of us are free until we are all free. One way participants connected LGBTQ oppression with the oppression of people of color and other marginalized communities was watching the film From Selma to Stonewall, which explores the intersection of the fights for African American civil rights and LGBTQ rights. The filmmakers then met the tour in Selma to speak at Brown Chapel and walk the Edmund Pettus Bridge with the to...

A tour which began from a desire to offer solace and inspiration to communities under attach became, also, an inspiration to those who participated and to people across the country. Capturing the imagination of many communities, the Lavender Pen tour attracted a full concert of people dedicated to capturing the tour for history. Most important, a film was envisioned to tell the stories of the tour as it travelled the southern U.S. As bridges were built between the San Francisco Gay Men's Chorus ...

After the presidential election of 2016, two choir directors were looking for a way to take action. The San Francisco Gay Men's Chorus thought a tour of the southern states might give the choir an opportunity to offer solace and call attention to anti LGBTQ legislation. The Oakland Interfaith Gospel Choir was moved by the message of inclusion and social activism and signed on. So the two directors, Tim Seelig and Terrance Kelly, collaborated to create a tour that would bring inspiration and supp...

When therapist Nisha Zenoff's 17 year old son died, her extensive training in supporting clients in grief suddenly felt inadequate. She entered a new world that called everything into question. Putting one foot in front of another, time passed and she came through the worst initial grief and became especially well prepared to support other parents who had lost a child. Although grief does not end, Nisha found a way forward. She has now compiled everything she has learned, from her own experience...

What is modern about loss? Human beings have been experiencing loss for as long as there have been human beings. But there is a movement going on right now that seeks to open up the conversation about grief, to create communities of people that support each other through their hardest times. As we engage on social media and through the internet the world becomes smaller and smaller and our ability to connect with other people and share our losses becomes more accessible. Modern Loss, the platfor...

How much do you know about offering empathy when someone you love is having hard times? Kelsey Crowe found that many people in her own life had a hard time being there for her through her own most difficult moments. Then she noticed that she was not great at it either! It became her mission to learn and teach the skills that lead to a sense that we are loved, supported, and trusted to find our own solutions. The book she co-authored with Emily McDowell, There is No Good Card for This, is a pract...

The heart which has known loss looks for echoes. Who has something to teach us about this new and daunting territory? Julie Saeger Nierenberg and Victoria Brewster set out on a search for people who had something to say about death, dying and end of life. In the process, they created a book full of individual and professional insights into the land of loss. Join us to talk about their new book, how it came about, and the impact it's had on them to explore this world.

As conversations about the end of life have become more open and available, many of us have become more active in planning our own ends. But what are the resources that help us to plan well? What can support us as we work to understand our choices and their consequences? Thankfully, there is help available. Joy Loverde has written a book to help us answer the questions most critical in planning for an end of life that reflects our values and resources. Who Will Take of Me When I'm Old? frames th...

What happens when a person who has supported others through their hardest times faces his own hardest time? In Rabbi Steve Leder's case, a crisis in his own life led to a deepening understanding of what it takes to come through such a time and what helps when you are the one facing something so life changing. Surviving, healing and growing forever holds the possibility of finding a more profound meaning. Rabbi Leder found that in his own suffering, his understanding of suffering itself deepened....

When Michelle Steinke-Baumgard's husband died suddenly, she found her few moments of peace in exercise. First depending on that time as a lifeline, she soon found a deep passion for the healing effects of endorphins on her grief, helping her to find a way forward for her life. Now, she is a fierce advocate for the power of exercise and endorphins as therapy for grief and trauma. Her book, Healthy Healing, tells her own story and shares what she learned about the the impact of exercise on well be...